LET GO LET GOD

I'm sure you have all heard this popular statement " Let go and let God" but looking back my week was truly a show of that statement. I met with a friend for dinner last week and we happened to talk about something that i had been struggling with for a while. There was someone i had known for 3 years and this person ended up moving away but I did not know until the last minute. We both had realized we had feelings for each other and started seeing each other but then towards the end there was a shock in hearing from someone else and not this person that he was leaving. These feelings of bitterness and confusion, alongside anger as to why I had to find out from someone else brewed within me for years.We did meet 2 years later at a mutual friend's birthday party, had a conversation about what happened and i thought i had forgiven this person.His name came up in conversation the week before and we happened to talk about it but when I took a step back and thought of the words that left my mouth , all I could hear was that same bitterness, hurt,pain. It was not as intense as it was before but it was still there  and that shook me to my core. I thought i was OK but clearly i wasn't. Again this is not to point fingers at anyone because I know I was also at fault.

According to the NASB Hebrews 12:15 says "See to it that no one comes short of the grace of God; that no root of bitterness springing up causes trouble, and by it many be defiled"

Bitterness springs up where matters are left unattended. I had allowed these emotions to grow within me and settle deep within my heart instead of taking care of these matters straight away. I realized how this situation had tainted my view of relationships and friendships that i found it harder to trust in people. I would notice a shift in my friends attitude and I would immediately shut down and distance myself so that I wouldn't get hurt. I had thought that in my capability and strength, as well as time,I would be able to heal but this situation proved otherwise. 2 years had passed but I was still as hurt and broken as I was before.

Psalms 147 :3 says "He heals the brokenhearted.And binds up their wounds." 

I am here to tell you that that statement " Time heals all wounds" is one of the worlds many lies because it speaks of a dependency on time rather on the creator of time who can heal all things ; illnesses, broken hearts. This verse says God heals the brokenhearted and binds their wounds, I had to be brought to my very end to realize time was incapable to healing me or even me and only the Lord could provide that healing. See, unforgiveness is a prison and a poison. It stops you from experiencing the joy and reality of the now because you are trapped in the situation and the pain you have experienced. It taints your eyes in believing all the same about everyone you come near to. In that space of unforgiveness, I was blocking myself from experiencing forgiveness and the mercy of the Lord.

For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. Matthew 6 :14

When we do not forgive, the father can not pour out His forgiveness over us as well. I know its hard but we don't have to do this on our own. Earlier this week, this person came by to see me and we sat down and talked. I remember praying before He came for the Lord to help me let go and help me. I remember seeing a vision of me taking a step back and giving room for the Lord to step in when we were talking and all i could say was thank you Lord. I had recognized my incapability to truly heal on my own or depending on time and trusted in the Lord. Mind you this is something I had been bringing to the Lord for almost a year and a half but He finally healed me and that was in letting go and letting God.

In Isaiah 60:22 it says at the right time the Lord will make it happen. Sometimes our timing will not be the same with the Lord's but we need to keep coming to the Lord and praying without ceasing. His word says we have not because we ask not and maybe you need to ask more without giving up. I can now truly say I have forgiven him but this was only possible because of the hand of the Lord. He saw where i did not and recognized there was still healing to be done and in His right time, He made that happen.

One thing I realized I had been doing was talking about it. I was allowing myself to re-live the pain I had felt while saying I had forgiven him. Mark 11:24 says "I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours."
When we pray over something we need to believe it is already done and not speak on it and allow the enemy to sow fresh seeds of hurt , bitterness. Remember the enemy wishes for us to be in captivity but God in all His goodness can use a situation that caused pain for His glory and your transformation

PRAYER:

Heavenly Father, thank you so much that you are an on time God. That you work things all for our good as long as we work in partnership with you. Help me have the patience to wait on you God and the persistence as well as endurance to keep praying without ceasing. Do not allow me to dwell on the areas of hurt that have been caused by others but help me surrender and let you have your way in these areas of my life. I pray that you would highlight any people I have not truly forgiven and that you would walk me into forgiving in totality. 

Thank you Jesus

In Jesus' name. Amen